KARYN WHITE - SUPERWOMAN

Bleargghhh

Am desperately looking for some instant solutions to the things that have been bothering me of late; responsibilities, financial commitments / constraints, kids, career (?), expectations, high expectations, lethargy, housework ...

Surely I can get (crawl) my way out of this abyss

Marathon days are here..

Am not looking forward to the days ahead. Anticipating very stressful Tuesday and Wednesday. Hopefully will have a more or less smooth transition in the next couple of days as I get back to my old routine. Must remember to have a sit down session with the elder two and hopefully they'll co-operate with mama. Perhaps a little bribing will do the trick. Wish me luck..

Doing it and doing it right

Wishing that people would just do their job and do it properly. Is that so much to ask?? Really, stop the grumbling, whining and pointing of fingers and just get to it. After all, you're getting paid right... so what's the excuse? I can't think of any...

Saturday nite

A few old frens came up from JB yesterday with the intention of meeting the KL bunch for a quick/short get together. Unfortunately though, since it was a long weekend with friday being a public holiday (Maulidur Rasul), only 3 managed to make it to the meeting. The rest of the gang were scattered all over the Peninsular, back in their hometowns meeting families and relatives. For the remaining few who were still in the state and not under the weather, we managed to converge at the big golden arch at Ampang Park last nite.

I was happy to be there, seeing old frens from the past and catching up on life in general. It was made even better with the presence of a new found ex-classmate of late. I came of course with my BFF/chauffeur (as always) who was kind enough to drive me to KL 45 mins after returning home from being out working all day. Honestly, without him I doubt I would've made the journey to the city. I hate driving to KL. I hate it even more when it's at night and to a place where I'm not familiar with. The last time I was in Ampang Park was many moons ago, and it's not exactly high on my list of fav places to hang out.

Anyway, my BFF was his usual friendly/sociable self. Quickly warming up to my frens and I'm pretty sure had a good time chomping away on the prosperity burger whilst watching Chelsea vs Man City. The last time he was out at some joint watching football with male companions was probably 14 years ago...before we got married. It's great to see him so relaxed and at ease last nite. I have to admit, at one point I wondered... were we there for my mini reunion or his?

Mengaji Class

No 3 never liked going for his mengaji class. I don't know why, since the tahfiz school is just 3 doors away from our house, with many boys of his age as company... and the class is only half an hour at most. He'd often beg to stay home, giving all sorts of excuses... ranging from I have a fever/headache/toothache/ulcer... to I have a lot of homework from Teacher Kamisah (his kindy class teacher) etc. In extreme cases, no 3 would force himself to nap minutes after arriving home from his sitter, just to avoid attending his mengaji class which comes after.

What I don't understand is, when he comes back from the class... he's always in such a good mood. Telling me all the things that he's learned from the short 30 minute class, how many more pages to go before finishing off his Iqra' and who his new friends are. So I'm left to surmise that the class isn't that bad after all.. and that he's actually able to enjoy it once he's there and gets started.

Well, 2 days ago... to my surprise.. no 3 requested to be picked up early from his sitter because he wanted to go for his mengaji class after that. What?? Am I hearing this right... So mama did a bit of probing and discovered that on the day before, he had such a gala time at his class. Porquoi? Well apparently on that day... the ustaz who usually teaches him wasn't around so the older abang tahfiz was left in charge of his lesson that day. Which means... no 3 was able to have a chit-chat with the younger tahfiz boys as oppose to the usual hush-hush - silent mode which prevails in his regular classes. (Yes..yes..when the cat is away... the mouse comes out to play). Which also means that the tahfiz boys@ son's comrades were free to take out their rations of singam (chewing gums) and lollipops to be shared with no 3.

Husband has only one thing to say.... "No wonderlah he wants to go back to the class..it's like a gentlemen's club there".

Farewell mentor

I've often believed that as I travel through life, I'm bound to cross paths with someone special who will leave an impression in my life. And if I'm lucky, I might strike a long and lasting friendship with such a character lasting for decades. Benefiting much from the relationship physically, mentally and spiritually.

I met with such a person, nearly 2 decades ago... a postgraduate student who arrived in bonny Edinburgh late autumn with his wife and 3 kids. Over the years in Edinburgh, my friends and I have regarded him as more than just the provider of our weekly usrah. He was our friend, our mentor and our point of reference with regards to many things in life. He was our brother who was wise and generous with what he had. And we will definitely miss the friendship and wisdom of the man affectionately known to us as Ustaz Din.

- Dr Hj Zainuddin Jaafar, may Allah have mercy on your soul. Al Fatihah.

One lazy , gravity-defying Saturday afternoon

No 5

No 4

No 3

No 2

No 1

Altogether now

Happy Father's Day

Years and years ago, sometime back in the early 90s, I came across a poem in an article in the New Straits Times. There was however no title nor name of the poet that had written it. Drawn by its simplicity and clever use of metaphor, I immediately cut out the poem and have kept it for the past 16 odd years.

I took it out today and like any newspaper clipping kept over a long period of time, mine has now turned yellow, almost brown in fact.... but still intact.

"If there be a garden with blooms aplenty

But not the buzz of a single bee

Be it fresh and bright from morn ' to morn

Yet is it not lifeless without some sound?

For it is the way with Mother Nature

The humming bee completes the overture

So tell me not, dear ladies and friends

That we can live without our men

A day, a week... perhaps we can

But come a month, that is the end

We yearn and long for his caress

With him, we enjoy the comfort of our nest

Without him, ecstasy is never at its best."

****

To F my best bud... partner in crime... "along"...mr fixit...gadget-man...driver...court jester... DVD provider etc etc...

"HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!"

Father's Day dinner at Sunway Pyramid

The Holy Land

About 2 weeks ago, a few colleagues, a neighbour and a friend from primary school left to perform their umrah with their respective families. Seeing a few of them leave and having conversations with them prior to their journey, has left me feeling very nostalgic indeed.

It was exactly a year ago when I too had the priviledge of visiting the Holy Land. And I've often wondered since then, when my next visit would be. Sometimes in quiet moments alone, I'd have flashbacks of my time spent in Madinah and Mecca. I'm reminded of the prayers performed in the two great mosques and the feeling of calm and tranquility felt there. Often I'd find myself wishing I was back in Masjidil Haram, amongst the sea of people performing the tawaf or listening to the melancholic call of the azan beckoning all to perform the solat. I look forward and can't wait for the time when I'm given the opportunity to return to these two holy cities again. And I certainly hope that it wouldn't be too long of a wait.

WOULDN"T IT BE NICE

Wouldn't it be nice

to be left alone

in the bliss of quiet solitude,

to set the mind free

of worries that be

which plagues this self of mine.

Wouldn't it be nice

to walk out that door

and leave this empty room,

for far distant places

with many new faces

and return

like a rose in full bloom.

Chaos

Life has been pretty chaotic for the past couple of months...and off late I've been feeling very exhausted and frustrated. This unwelcomed change of lifestyle, imposed by the recent change of events has very much turned my life upside down, with very little time left for me to indulge in my "Me" things.

I miss the quiet afternoons when I used to be able to catch up with my multiple readings.... (3 books read around the same period of time)... or how about just lazing in front of the TV at 3pm with remote control in hand and watching snippets of Ellen or My Max-ed programmes recorded a couple of days before. And one thing for sure, I most certainly miss (and I'm saying this with a capital M)... blogging.

The last post was about 2 months ago... and I haven't written anything since. Thus this very dead blog needs to be resurrected and I plan to do so ASAP. Yes... I will do that the moment there is some semblance of order in my life. ;)

Reunion at Rojak-Rojak

Ever since the date was set, I've been thinking about it almost everyday. What would everyone look like? Would I be able to recognise them? Would they be able to recognise me? What would I say to all of them when finally face to face? After all, 25 years is a very long time...



Yes, after weeks of planning, discussing dates and venues and coordinating with everyone... the reunion finally took place this afternoon. There was much laughter of course, as everyone recounted the past... recalling events as far back as 30 years ago. Old pictures were produced and animated conversation took place as we tried to recall names of ex-classmates and teachers. Some names easily rolled off our tongues, whilst others needed a bit more recollection. We definitely had a laugh looking at the pictures; the ridiculous poses and our 80s fashion sense.



Within the span of 3 hours, past events which have remained locked in the recesses of our minds for many many years were mentioned once more, resulting in peals of laughter. We recalled being used as messengers by two teachers who wanted to send notes (love notes??) to each other. We remembered a certain pencil accident which resulted in a slight spill of blood in standard one. And we certainly never forgot the nenek kebayan toilet stories that used to haunt us back at school.

Twenty-five years have passed, some things have definitely changed, but the familiarity of friendship and camaraderie have remained the same.

FBB's 2 days visa

(tq Fauzi B, Fauzee T, Fauzi I and Rizal for making the journey north to see Yassin, Shahrin, Inaz, Huda, Siti and I here in KL)

Though we have gone our separate ways,

the memories are here to stay,

Of cherished thoughts that fill our hearts

Till the last moments when we part.
******

What's Happening To the World?

I think I've gone rather cynical over the years. This deep feeling of mistrust of human nature is not just something that I've slowly developed over time, but is further fuelled by the increasing number of crime cases heard, seen and even experienced.

As such, the way I behave and conduct myself have always been of caution. I trust no one except for God and my family. Though we've had our share of potentially dangerous situations / encounters with robbers and such ... we've been quite lucky so far, in the sense that nobody has been hurt and everyone is safe in the end. And I have only ALLAH to thank for that.

I honestly can't understand how anybody could rob from the poor. My gardener this man who comes to our house on his rickety bicycle once a month to mow our grass, was robbed yesterday about 20 meters away from my house... roughly 30 minutes after I had last seen him. It's so mind-boggling and difficult to comprehend how anybody could even think of robbing him as he was obviously poor. There was no way anyone could mistake him to be rich. Definitely not from the way he was dressed; old and tattered trousers worn with a shirt that has probably seen many a washings.

Ironically, I had actually seen the robbers and the white Kelisa they were in before that. But of course, I didn't know then that they were looking for victims. Through tricks, deceit and physical assault they managed to relieve the gardener of his machine ( a brand new grass-cutting machine which was bought on loan and have yet to be paid back). My husband and I saw him moments after the robbery and we were deeply affected by the sight that greeted us. The anguished look on his face which later gave way to cries of despair was something that neither of us could ever forget. He could not understand how fellow Muslims could ever resort to such acts on another fellow Muslim. Yes.. the robbers as I recall were indeed Muslim lads and there were 3 of them in the car. Such cowards!! Three against one... and I've only words of contempt for them.

Today, our gardener returned to our house with another grass-cutting machine which was given to him by a generous Haji who lived not very far from here. In our brief conversation, I advised him not too be too trusting of people ( even if they are Muslims ) and to be extra cautious in the future. As he cleared my garden of weeds and later mowed the lawn, I asked my 2 elder kids if they wanted to give the man some money as sedekah as their way of helping a fellow Muslim in need. They both agreed to part with some of their savings - Hannan from her Eid collection whilst Yusuf from the circumsicion angpau he received from Atok Famy last year. And when I gave him his dues for the day's work together with a packet of bahulu and my kids' sedekah .. I could see the tears of joy trickling down his weather-beaten face as he clasped his hands together in a sign of gratitude . Being the softie that I am, I quickly turned away as I too felt a tear or two trickling down my face.

Revisiting my past

FB has been a godsent and I have Mark Zuckerberg to thank. The whole idea of allowing people to get connected with others be it locally or globally is just great. Over the past year of being active in FB, I've been able to stay connected with friends, make new friends and even get reacquainted with long lost childhood pals from school...going as far as 25 years.

I had left primary school 25 years ago to be exact. Since then, I've been everywhere. When dad got promoted, we left the state and moved up north. I later left the country in 1990 to continue my studies abroad for 6 years. Upon my return, I moved 3 times before finally settling down to where I am today. With work and family commitments, keeping in touch with friends over the years required effort... a lot of effort. And there were many many times when contacts were lost or friends just drifted apart.

Of late, some old friends have been extra busy tracking down classmates of a primary school that I used to attend in Johor. People whom I'd never thought I'd hear or see again suddenly appear on my screen out of nowhere. Imagine the emotions stirred upon seeing familiar names popping up and the floodgates of memories opening, unleashing memories of yesteryears. Contacts have since then been re-established, phone calls made across states and messages sent flying in cyberspace. All in the pursuit of reconnecting with my past.

There's been a buzz on FB about organizing a reunion for our group. Talks about getting as many classmates as possible and teachers too (if possible) to meet up sometime soon... have definitely left me feeling so excited. I never had many pics of my primary years, and the fact that many were lost when we moved about only made it worse. So I can't thank you enough friends who have taken the effort to upload some old..really old pics of us back in school (some going as far back as 30 years). And it was indeed hilarious to be looking at the pics and not recognizing yourself in them... how terrible is that??

My Alma mater

1 kuning - 1979

Prefectorial Board - 1983

with friends at the school field

Class teacher Pn Hamidah and my tormentors

Our actual class register

OMG! I can see my name in the register!!!

(kudos to Fauzee/Fauzi)

* I'd just like to say a special thanks to several friends in Johor, who have taken the task to revisit the school and collect as much info about the class of 6 Biru 1984. See you guys at the reunion!

Family Bliss

When I was growing up, I remember spending a lot of time at my grandfather's house. On weekdays my brother and I stayed at his place in Taman Johor Jaya, whilst on weekends we would be back in Singapore with our mom and dad. He was a strict man, my Tok Bak . And I remember us (his grandchildren) being terribly afraid of him. He only had to give us the briefest of glance, and we'd be scampering away in the opposite direction. On the contrary, my Mak Tok was a gentle and quiet woman, whom we often sought comfort from. But as Tok Bak got older, he somehow mellowed in my opinion. He became more friendly and less of a disciplinarian and his grandchildren were no longer afraid of him.

If there was one thing about my garandfather that I'd remember most, it'd be his belief in the unity of the family. And over the years of growing up, I have witnessed the solidarity and unity of the Omar clan. Yes, they bicker and fight, like any other family. But at the end of the day, they remain as one. And it is this value passed on from my grandfather to my mom and to me, that I hope to pass on to my children one day.

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I came aross this beautiful poem earlier on and I think it encapsulates the true essence of the family day we had last December.

Family.. by
© Ryan Guerrero

Not enough hours in the day, we often say

we watch as the business of life allows time slip away.

Before we know days turn to months and months into years,

Time is mapped with laughter and cheers,

the long road sometimes landmarked with sadness and tears.

Elders pass and children grow,

has it been that long we ask, where does the time go?

Not every chance to gather is taken.

"We'll see them next time" we say and hope we're not mistaken.

A chance like now comes once in a lifetime it seems,

when the bright light of family is nurtured and beams,

there will be laughter and time to reminisce

we will all be proud this is a chance we did not miss.

***

Our venue : Agrotek Garden Resort. Beautifully landscaped.

*****

Let the games begin....

Betung Air

Tarik bangggg....jangan tak tarikkkk!!!

nombor besar..nombor besar..nombor besar

Eh! Doktor gigi tau tak anak dia tengah kutip gula-gula..

kiri-kanan-kiri-kanan

... I'm quite sure there was a baby whale just now...

santai kita....

wrestling atas titi

ohh...but he was doing so well just now...

the faris familia

and the cheering crowd

santapan rohani

Aisyah's birthday cake

Luqman's birthday cupcakes

... and Safreedah's Hilton cakes... yum! yum!

****

The Entertainment

David Copperfield wannabes

.. suara ikut mamanya... those dance moves definitely ikut ayahnya

bacaan selawat oleh cucu tersayang

... and the best line of the nite..."Err atok... we are balanced".

.. the crooner and his mime squad..

the singing dentist...with his most unique rendition of Purple Rain

***

Prize giving ceremony

our very own Princess Hannan

best performance... "mama miaaaaaaa"

pertawai

Kacong

kampong kastam

pujaan kuuuu


and the winner is... the mengkarungs!

orang kuat kita

the Omar family

yeayyyy! that was one successful family day!!

and

... the winner of the karoake nite...
Dr Purple Rain himself, accepting ( in absentia)his award at home.

***

A chance like now comes once in a lifetime it seems,
when the bright light of family is nurtured and beams,
there will be laughter and time to reminisce
we will all be proud this is a chance we did not miss.

... and happy I am that we did not miss, the times with our loved ones was surely bliss!